As I am laying here using my friend Kortney's computer, at 4:25 in the morning, while sitting in what can only be described as a half-hazard attempt at a bed (I shoved the two uncomfortable dorm couches together), I wonder why I even decided to start a blog!
One- I have officially made it past the mark of being tired and am beginning to reach that point of being happily delusional so why NOT write a blog?Two- I really wish I could keep up on my journal....but I rarely do. So a blog might give me motivation to get my thoughts on paper (er, internet? Here's hoping!)
Three- My sister and mother both have tried talking me into starting a blog before and I have just figured, what the heck! (If no one reads it, oh well. If people actually DO read it I might be embarrassed, but I suppose I can always delete whatever I do not want people to see- how comforting!)
What is on my mind.
My lovely friend Cindy and I just watched Letters to Juliet. It was poor quality both picture-wish and sound-wise, but I don't believe anything so tedious can get between a girl and a good love story! Anyways, after the movie Cindy and I talked about what it will be like to be in love. Not puppy love, or teenager "I-can't-live-without-talking-to-you-every-five-minutes" love, but the legit crazy type of love.
I don't want to say that I have never been in love before, because I have had a few boyfriends and felt love for all of them in some way or another, but I can't help but expect more from love. Is that wrong of me? Maybe the combination of Prince Charmings and Corny Romantic Average Jos in movies has influenced my opinion on the matter, but I can't bear to think that my "happy ending" will never come to be. I know that things will not be easy and "happily ever after" in love, but I do believe that love is everlasting and eternal. Everytime I see my parents together I am comforted that true love exists! I want that for myself eventually! (My parents are adorably/disgustingly still in love after over twenty years of being married)
I wonder if there is a specific way to go about reaching true love? I know there are millions of books out there with thousands of lists on how to find your soul mate, but do those HONESTLY work? I doubt it. From what I know and have experienced love is a trial-and-error type of thing. Hopefully I will be able to figure it out when it comes along!!
Well I am going to catch the three hours of sleep I can before its time to wake up!
Oh, and as a disclaimer to this blog entry: I am not looking to get married anytime soon. Breathe easy mom ;)
